SAD SAD SAD

These day i don't know what actually happen to me~
He didn't call me not even a text
It makes me feel like a person that wanted his love so much
Like a stupid if i say it clearly
What is actually happen
I want the old situation
Not this kind of situation where we wont bother about each other again~

HEARTACHE

How do we live our life?

How do we live our life actually? Are we getting bored with our daily routine? Did we cherish every second with everyone that we love? Dis we hurt the person we love the most? But most important is how do we live this life that GOD have given to us. Did we just live it like there is no hope in this world? 

The 22-year-old has become an Internet sensation after his appearance on "Korea's Got Talent" with well over 10 million people so far watching him on YouTube.
His powerful baritone voice sounds as if it belongs to a man twice his age and build, but it is not just his singing that reduced the presenters and much of the audience to tears.
"I was left in the orphanage when I was 3," he told the judges at this first appearance, "and when I was 5, I ran away after being beaten by people there. I sold gum or energy drinks on the street. I had that life for about 10 years."
He told the judges he used to sleep in stairwells or public toilets and decided he wanted to sing after seeing a performer in a nightclub where he was selling gum. "I was fascinated by the singer who sang on the stage so sincerely," Choi said.
Choi admits he is both scared and excited by the sudden global attention he has received. A Facebook fan page has been set up in his name, and the praise-filled comments are from people from all corners of the world.
The onetime construction worker said before his first performance that he does not sing very well. The audience and panel disagreed. "It was the first thing that I liked after I ran away and was living on the streets, the first thing I was ever able to dream about. It was a small little wish I had."
His wish of being able to sing has come true. He's odds-on favorite to win "Korea's Got Talent," and even if he doesn't, one of the judges has already promised to help him with voice training.
Choi did attend an arts high school around the age of 16, graduating in 2009 -- it was the first time he went to school.
He said he finds it unbelievable that someone like him was able to be on a show like "Korea's Got Talent," and he says he is thankful "because now, I have a reason to live."

Every Girl Deserve This Once In A Life Time~

Maybe a lot of people might say that i am crazy over getting married but actually NO. When i listen to this song i'll always remember and forever stick it in my head about my family incident. Mostly, this song make me have the courage to get into a relationship again. 

EVERY GIRL DESERVE THIS ONCE IN A LIFE TIME

I want to have this song on my wedding. But i don't think i'll remember this song after a very long time. I am still a teenager. A girl that doesn't know anything and always been protected by my dad. I hope everything that came to me will stay permanently. Not only love, my study, my everything and mostly my family and also HIM. 

I wanna look beautiful in white. Because my aunt say the moment when a girl look obviously beautiful is when she wore her weeding dress and married to someone who she love so much. I hope i can find someone who will love me truly in the future not because i have wealth or my appearance but because he wan to live this life with me.

P/S: To all girls this is a comment i get from a reader

It made me cry.. I never wanted to get married but it made me realize how blessed I would be if that happens by Ssejea

I'm gonna be in white :D by MrLoveVio

Love?

Today i am kinda emotional. Everything is already been hard for me. Living in this kind of situation where everyone can blame you for every single mistake you've done. It is like when you make good things and nobody will bother about it but when you make a mistake even it was only a small mistake. The whole world will judges you.

Love? What is that? Even i have been through a lot of relationship, but there is no relationship that i wanted to commit in it. Was it just a feeling or depression to get a partner? i do hate this kind of thing happen, but to find a real love a person that we worth love for is like trying to reach the star and pluck it. it was totally impossible to get that kind of love because every human have their own limits. But it looks weird when a person who aren't perfect want a perfect love. Because there is no perfect person in this world except than HIM, everything that that we have might give other think that we are rises perfectly but LOVE isn't something that we can buy with money, but LOVE grew by itself when the times come. What is LOVE? LOVE is when you saw someone you hate as someone that you'll cherish. LOVE is unlimited and it won't end, because LOVE was there since HE created this world.

Lydia

What Make Me Special? by Erin

When my sweet friend, Amy, emailed me yesterday and told me she’d be doing a blog topic called “Getting Real” and wanted me to participate, I started to worry. I’ve always kept it real on my blog and have been about as open as possible about my struggles and worries. But this time I know that Amy was looking for us to do it to encourage others and I just started to worry about what I would say.

I mean, don’t get me wrong. I was mostly worried because when I think about my struggles and insecurities and things that have weighed me down over the years, I can immediately think of about ten different things. Which one would I write about?

I dated someone seriously in high school, but didn’t date anyone in college. I just knew that I’d go to college and meet my husband and that didn’t happen. Those were sad times. I was overweight for all of college and had one girl in particular who liked to point that out to me. That was a sad time. Would I ever lose the weight? I’ve gone through a rough time here in Columbia after friends moved away and TC and I were engaged where I couldn’t seem to find my place. And then again after we were married and had Hudson. And you know what? Every struggle and every prayer has been answered in God’s time.

The biggest thing I can say about not dating in college and those years of insecurity and doubt is that He was saving me. There was the perfect man for me out there and I wasn’t where I was supposed to be just yet. And I did lose the weight after some hard work and a lot of time.

But the thing I’m going to talk about today is finding my place. My value. My purpose.

You all know my recent struggles with being a SAHM. I love being home with Hudson every day and I know exactly how important that is. But I was also finding that I needed to be needed. And that’s the truth. I don’t know why, exactly, but who doesn’t like to be needed? I was becoming more and more insecure when I would think about some of the talents that I left behind and had chosen to stop using.

So I started plugging myself in more in every way that I could find. Various church commitments, activities for Hudson, Junior League commitments, etc. And that was all good, but I have been so incredibly busy lately that I’m starting to realize just how overwhelmed I am. And more commitments means that I spend more nights away from home or more time responding to emails and making phone calls.

And you know what? It took a very loud message from our Pastor during his sermon recently when the Lord told me, “a full calendar doesn’t make you important.”

Shouldn’t I just know that because He died for me, I am important? How much more important do I need to feel?

And then I look at my perfect and precious little boy and think, “Why would I want to fill my day with anything other than being with you?”

I know we all need activities away from home just as working mothers need activities away from work. I totally understand that and I’m not saying at all that I plan on quitting anything that I’ve started. But God has shown me that I have been foolish for spending so much time looking when my value and self-worth should have been plain as day to me all along.

My full calendar and extra bits of cash from my side job are not going to make me feel better about getting out of bed in the morning if I’m not seeing how important He already thinks I am. And I have to believe it, too!

Last night during Bible study, we were watching Beth Moore on video and she directed us to Acts 21:24, in which Paul says, “However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me– the task of testifying to the gospel of God’s grace.”

What I think of my life should mean nothing to me. I know that the Lord Jesus found me to be so important that He died for me. What I think doesn’t matter one little bit!

I know that not all of my readers are Believers and my prayer is that this post isn’t a turn-off for you. But this is my heart and I wanted to share it today because there may be just one other person that has gone through the same thing.

In the past few weeks I have re-prioritized and have found that not only am I less stressed, but I am also not looking for ways to be stressed. I don’t need to add a thing to my calendar and I don’t need to get phone calls from people inviting me to do things to feel loved and important.

I want to encourage all of you to visit Amy’s wonderful blog today and if you are a blogger and want to share your story, you can link up there to her post. There are quite a few really honest posts that have already been linked up and maybe one of them is something you need to read.

crdt to Erin

Getting Real by Amy

It occured to me yesterday as I dialogued with a single blogger friend that I'm not the only one "in waiting". Mine may be for a child and hers for the husband she longs to know...but however different these struggles may be, they are equally painful. The not knowing can be the hardest part of any situation.  If you aren't single, don't leave yet!!! I'm hoping you can help in a sec.  A bit of the email:

...don't think that just because there is no one in your "every day world" right now that it means that God isn't working on it. At 27, I remember thinking that "all the good ones were surely gone" and there was no one in my current environment that I would ever consider as potential to marry. On a whim, I applied for a job in Bham, AL even though I was living in Dallas, TX, did a phone interview, and when I got the job, I packed up a Uhaul and was off...didn't know anything about what "tomorrow" would hold, which was very unlike me. 

Within six months, I had met, gotten to know, and married DW. I went fromnothing to everything in a mind-spinning short time. DW has said the same thing...he didn't know how he was ever going to meet the one and then one day an email with a resume came through that changed his life. 
I know it's hard when people around you are getting married and having babies and their lives seem to click and yours is a mystery. Just remember, God can change everything in a nano-second.

By the end of the email to encourage her, I realized that God was telling me to turn that statement about how "He can change everything in a nano-second" riiiiight back on myself. I haven't been living my life like I really believe that as I struggle through my battle with infertility. Again, I'm a work in progress. 

It suddenly occured to me that I'd love for people to tell their stories of when God seemed far or His plan unclear and then they had the CLICK moment where it all comes together and you realize His plan wasn't just there all along, it was a dang good one. I figure we've all had a different journey and each of us has a moment like this we could potentially share to minister to others.  The "Wow, God...I get it" moment. 

I need encouragement today. I want others to be encouraged today.  I'm hoping for real moments of clarity from real people: the things you wish someone had said to you. Things someone did saythat helped. Maybe even the things you wished people hadn't said to you.  Your experiences about finally finding the One, marriages that have survived despite the odds, miracle pregnancies, unexpected job opportunities. I'm confident your story has the power to minister to someone else today.

I've attached one of those McLinky things below. If you'll put your struggle: "Job Woes", "Single Forever", whatever best explains what you went through and what God taught you through it.  Hopefully this will help other readers with similar current issues find you. If you think that you have readers that would like to participate and share, I'd love it if you'd send them over. I'm hoping the more transparent we all are...the more we can help each other do this crazy thing called life.


Crdt to Amy

Getting over Someone Isn't Easy

It's not an easy process so if anyone tells you it is, it doesn't matter how long or how short you lasted, the thing is you were together and there were memories and that makes it hard... It's usually the small ones that pain the most...

Small but the impact is huge, or the ones you never really thought of and then BANG hehehe it all comes flooding back.. How bout all the hopes for the future you held, it's hard letting go of all that.. It's not impossible, its just hard.

You sometimes sit there and all you do is hurt yourself, because the harder you try not to think of it the easier it is to. It sucks also being with someone else, because there is always those familiar traits that the one before had that keeps popping up, like take me for example I had my first kiss with the most recent one and now I can't kiss anybody honestly... Guys try but my heart hurts and I back up... all you do is get scared, because you knew, you know exactly what happend the last time you went there and you're still dealing with the aftermath of losing sucha precious moment and experience...

My advice is learn... Be strong, not weak. You're worth more than that... Don't settle for anything smaller this time around... RESPECT yourself and know that it just wasn't meant to be and there is someone out there who is MEANT TO love you enough to fight... Someone who will love just as much... Accept what you don't have and cherish what you do... Even if they are just memories, but do not be held back or down by them. You are more than those memories... You still have a future, with you happy in it.

Love is still there... In you ~smiles~ you'll get over him... Don't worry if feels like it's impossible, but it is... Eventually one day you will stop thinking about the memories.. Eventually you'll be surprised at the fact that you don't jump at the mention or sight of him... Eventually you will feel love and you will strugle to remember him... How it was and how it isn't... It's not easy... It's doable!

Lydia

Love is a Stage

Love is a Stage
It's time to put on your face again...
Don't forget the eyes. Never forget the eyes.
You've got to look beautiful for them, they are all watching what you will do next.
Come into the light, it's time for your performance.
You have forgotten your lines.
The spotlight is on you, and it's burning your skin. The rest of the stage is black.
Fumbling blindly. Unaware of the old moldy floorboards, the layout of the stage, the voices, the eyes, all watching.
This is not what you rehearsed! The scenarios seem foreign, trying to keep up with the actions and dialogues, a hundred faces watching.
You beg for it to be over, just to leave. The spotlight is getting brighter but the faces are getting darker, until the only thing you can see is there black glistening eyes.


Run.
Flee the building, stage door exit. The rain runs your makeup. The sodium street lights guide you home.
You wonder as you change out of your costume...
"did they applaud me?"
But there's no time for that, you have another performance tomorrow.
And the next day and the next day and the next.
Love is a stage. It's time for all of us to play our part. And maybe someday, someone will write a comedy.

Lydia 

Do you really love someone for who they are or just the idea of them?

Loving someone just for who they are and loving the idea of someone is two different thing that people can’t seem to differentiate.
Do you really love a person regardless of the flaws that they have in the past, the flaws they have now, and the flaws they’ll develop in the future?

Loving someone for who they are is when you have seen almost all the sides they choose to show to you. Loving someone for who they are is despite knowing that they have done so much bad things in the past and you know that already. Loving someone is loving them exactly for who they are, despite looks because inner beauty is what matters most. Loving someone is actually knowing that you won’t judge them regardlessly. Loving someone is actually knowing that they’re realistic, not a figment of your imagination. Loving someone is just loving someone that you know you can see all beautiful errors of them and knowing exactly who they are and what they look like, nevertheless.
Loving the idea of someone is an illusion you have created to let your mind tell you that, the person you love right now is someone you really think you love for who they, inside and out. When really, the person you created isn’t the person you thought they be. You might only like the image of them, then when you get to know them, their appearance means so much to you that you think you fell in love with them even if you got to know them. To me, this is what I mean when you only love the idea of them. You may only fall in love with a part of them, while everything is just an exclusionary delusion.
Ask yourself again, do you really love that person for who they are or do you love just the idea of them, which is only a part of them?

Lydia 

How To Love An Imperfect Person Perfectly

” We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love, but to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly “

I read that quote from unknown author somewhere, and well, I do really put that over my head, and my heart. When we meet someone we are attracted to, it is not a choice. I believe it is a chance.  Also when we meet the right person to love, being caught up in a moment and get together, I (still) believe it is not a choice, but also a chance.

The difference is what happens afterwards. When will we take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level? That is when all sanity goes back, we sit down and contemplate whether we want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling. If then we decide to love a person, even with his faults, it is not a chance. It is a choice.

When we choose to be with a person, no matter what, it is a choice. Even if we know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than our mate is, and yet, we decide to love our mate just the same, it is a choice.

Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chances. However, true love that lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make. Regarding soul mates, I believe is so true about that Fate brings you together, but it is still up to you to make it happen.

I do believe that soul mates do exist. That there is truly someone made for us. Nevertheless, it is still up to us to make the choice if we are going to do something about it or not. We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mates is still a choice we have to make, and it’s all simply because we came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly. 


Lydia